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Not Everything In Alaska is Pretty



I don’t think I could really tell him this cause I know it would really upset him, but I have never felt so unwanted by people who matter most. He makes me feel wanted, I feel like a burden some times. His guy friends are nice to me and his best friend has reached out a couple times so that is nice but the rest of the group, mostly the women aren’t as welcoming. They are lawyers, which I don’t know why they are so snobby, but they are. One of the girls offered a place to stay, and then stood the group up that night when she was suppose to meet me and then backed out of it. She said only one of use could stay not two. It’s fine that she doesn’t want us to live there but she always has an excuse when I am hanging out, not to come out.

The other group that has made me feel the shittiest is his mom and sister. She offered us a place to hook up our camper, so we did. But now I find out that she doesn’t want us living here because he got really mad and blew up verbally during his parents divorce because his girl friend cheated on him and he blamed them as the straw on the camels back. I don’t know all the details and it’s not my place to go into it fully all I know is that because of that I am being lumped into a category with her and we can’t stay here much longer.

I just don’t understand why I am not given a chance. I am polite and kind. I go out of my way for others. I try being aware of what’s going on in the world so I can hold conversations with many different groups of people. So if I have all that why do I feel I am being so shut out so fast with out a fighting chance.

At least I have work starting up. This week I was offered one job and have two interviews this upcoming week. It will allow me to meet new people, people who won’t be comparing me to others or shutting me out cause I am not one of the original group, even though I was in FL while it was happening and was the silent member. At least in Naples will try sucking the life out of you before shutting you out. I don’t know, all I know is I am here for Mr. GC and we will be leaving in November and I don’t have to worry about coming to this place of bitterness for another 7 months after that.