In Florida it is typical to have lots of trees and flowers everywhere, however people plant them. Most of the nature is not natural unless you are in the swamp then everything is natural, but you won’t see many flowers. Here there are wild flowers everywhere! It is fantastic. I know I got here at the end of summer so the cold is coming and that entails things will be dyeing, but what I have seen has still made me happy. They even have wild strawberries and raspberries growing in peoples front yard by accident. And they are dam good too, tiny with a punch of flavor. I have to say even in the city the flowers grow and that is a wonderful thing. Ok now on to some pictures.
I am a big fan of street art. I don’t know if it is because I spent most of my childhood in Miami or what but I always have been super fascinated by it, so when I went for a walk I had to take pics of things I found. It all started when I wanted coffee and then I walked down 2nd Ave in Fairbanks. Here is what I found.
So Fairbanks isn’t much different then northern Florida in the stand point that the trees and foliage is over grown, the building look older and a lot less commercial businesses than in southern Florida. Now on the other hand all the trees look like mini Christmas trees, which I want to decorate them all, it was 50 degrees in August and well I have no clue what the stores are here. I do think it is adorable on how almost every corner has either a diner or a coffee hut. Yes they have actual huts that serve coffee. Let me say you must think I am stupid for finding this entertaining, however let me say in south Florida we rarely have huts because they would blow away in a hurricane.
Another thing I found interesting was when we went to the movie theater the ticket booth was inside. I know it gets very cold and understand the concept and honestly think all ticket booths should be this way. Hell I don’t want to stand out in the muggy heat for tickets either.
On the topic of movies, I just saw Guardians of the Galaxy and holy hell it kicked some ass. Highly, highly recommend it.
Well that is really all I have to report on, it is only my second night here. I do have to say going grocery shopping and going to dinners and movies and bars has been really nice with Mr. GC. I am still adjusting cause I still can’t believe I am here but I enjoy every waking and non waking moment. I do enjoy waking up to him and being able to cuddle up next to him at night.
So I am Bi, but over the years I have noticed 5 things that kinda piss me off. Most of it has to do with maybe the guys I date but here they are
1.Checking out other girls- I can appreciate the beauty of others, however one common thing that happens in relationships, mostly with men, is “Hey look at her, she is hot.” Sigh, yes I am glad you think she is good looking, and she might really be, but I am the person you are dating. I do not need to know about every piece of tail that you think looks good, especially cause, more likely than not, they don’t say shit about how I look. I come off as a very strong, confident person, but I am not as confident as you think. I think the one thing that I have always wanted in a relationship is to know I am enough woman for one person, and once that is established then we can talk about the long legged super model walking down the street. And the other thing is if it happens once in a while that is fine, but I dated a guy once who pointed out every single girl, and that got old real quick.
2.Threesomes- I am horrible at sharing. Always have, probably always will. I also don’t like mixing. I also have not really had anyone I trust enough to do this successfully. I have tried twice and it ended horribly. It was not for me because my partner was being selfish. Now like I said above, a guy shows me that I am his everything and enough for him, but we want to add some one as a toy, that is another story. However most guys I have meet or dated have the mind frame of a three some is an excuse to have sex with another person.
3.I am not going to cheat, with either sex- One the other side I have had guys be scared I would cheat on them with anyone. I would be hanging out with my friends who are girls and if I was spending a lot of time they would start accusing. Just cause I am Bi does not mean I am attracted to everyone. In fact it takes a lot for either sex to attract me, so cool your jets.
4.No you did not turn me- I have been asked during some relationships if they have turned me one way or another. No I am Bi, I will always be Bi, sorry. I have also had arguments with some gay friends because they said I was straight because I haven’t dated a girl in a while. No, that is dumb. I am picky and I may lean towards men more but I am still attracted to women and I enjoyed my relationships that I have had. Just because I am dating a guy does not mean that my feeling toward women “Poof” disappears.
5.I’m more than just sex- Stop using my Bi-ness in conversations like it is a special talent. Yes I might make jokes about it from time to time, but I am just like everyone else. I am not going to introduce you to a friend and say, “Hey this is Bob, he went to UCLA for Marine Biology , and he is straight” No, that sounds weird right? Just like gay people and transgender people want to be treated normally, so do Bi people. Its just a sexual preference, there are a whole lot more layers to this onion than just that.
So my mom was the one who drove me to the airport. Her and I have a very good connection and relationship with each other, but it took a while to get there. We bumped head when I was in middle and high school but that was because she was playing mom not best friend. Now that I am older we have a very strong friendship. Anyways, we had lunch before the airport and she handed me this.
Then she added, “This is so you can always find home. IF you trust Mr. GC give it to him and he’ll help you get there.” That is when the water works started. I was fine at the whole not crying thing until she said that. I am even getting a little teary eyed thinking about it right now, and I don’t need my fellow passengers thinking I am a weird crying weirdo. But yeah, if you ever want to make some one cry on there travels do this!
Now that I am in the air on my first of two flights today I have time to sit and think. I got to say good bye to my mom, there were tears and hugs and randomly bumped into some friends. Now that being all said this is my first big move. I have gone to New York for a couple of days and what not but never had to go any where longer than a week. I learned 5 important things. I am sure there are more than just these but these were the ones that stuck out to me the most.
1. Packing is awful – Well we all know packing is awful, but packing for a year? I think I packed my stuff at least eight or nine times before weighing. Then I weighed it and realized I was ten pounds over which is plus $90. Apparently if I brought 2 bags then I saved a lot more money, so that bring up the packing till about 10 times. Once you feel its packed, stop looking! This is very important, and I mean this fully. Don’t look in your closet, don’t go to the mall, and don’t go through your bag again! Just walk away. Oh and make sure anything of value is in your personal item, mine being my Mavel Universe bag. I also made sure each bag had at least three pairs of underwear and three shirts and jeans cause you never know what might get lost.
2. Getting rid of your car in Florida isn’t easy if you lose your title- So I was an irresponsible mover and lost my title when I left my odl apartment to live with my mom. Not only that but I waited till the last wee to junk my car that died two months ago. I now I am a bit of a slacker. However I found really quickly that in order to get rid of the car you NEED a title in FL. Other states they can check through the registration, but oh no I don’t live in one of those states. Also realize you are not going to get anything close to what you thought you would get. I thought since it was the computer and everything else was fine I would get $1o00, but sadly the highest I got offered was $400. At that point though I just needed it gone so my mom did not have to deal with it.
3. People will surprise you and let you down- This last week has been saying good bye, or at least trying to. Some people out of the blue surprised the hell out of me. I didn’t know I meant as much as I did to some and was taken to dinners and coffees and it was wonderful. On the flip side, there were people who meant a lot that didn’t even say boo. I know that life happens and people get busy, but I would have liked something since I will be gone for so long. Alas, I just have to let it roll off my shoulders because I want only good vibes on this journey.
4. Don’t be adventurous with food- If you are like me, you are horrified of flying. I have some anxiety issues so mix that with my fear of flying and well… my stomach does not do well. My suggestion is don’t decide a couple days before to eat food you are not use to. I made the mistake and this was what I consumed two days before:
*A crab Sandwich
*3 Giant things of coffee, very sweet
*greasy pub chips with cheese, bbq, and bacon
*An angry Orchid
Now this apparently does not mix well and made my stomach very unhappy, and by stomach I mean the actual stomach right under your ribs, not indigestion. Just eat plain food and buy a pack of Imodium just in case.
5.You will never have everything- No matter how much you plan and pack you will always be buying things last minute. The important things are passport, I.D., any meds, chargers, electronics, and underwear. Now What could I possibly forgotten to buy last minute? I needed tags for my bags incase they got lost. My mom and I went to Target to get that and wound up with the tags, a box of Benadryl, sunglasses, sunglass holder, and a new green dress. Yeah you will always find more things. Remember I said don’t go into the mall earlier? Super stores count in this too!
So it is now down to the final week, well less than a week. I tried to do a good party and the people who showed up surprised me and the people who didn’t surprised me even more. I guess it shows who is really there for you. I think it is really a couple people who haven’t said anything, I get that people have to work and things come up but those people who didn’t go have at least reached out to me and tried working something out. Oh well.
What this is suppose to be about is time! I feel like 6 days is still forever away, but now I am realizing there is sooooo much to do. Holy shit! I still have to try packing, for a third time, and clean up my room so my mom is not stuck with it. Plus I have work to deal with, banking, and finishing getting the odds and ends put together.
I really can’t believe life is about to change. No longer do I have to fall asleep with Skype or the phone up to my ear. No longer will I be doing things with out the person I want to share thins with. No longer will I go a day with out a kiss. At the same time I have to learn to be with some one again. I have been alone for three months so I know there will be some adjusting to living with some one again. Also I will be on the other side of the United states. I am going from South West Florida to North Pole Alaska, can’t get much different than that. I will be leaving my family and friends and work, but I know I need to do it. This will be worth it, if not now when?
I think I am procrastinating writing this entry at the moment. I literally just spend a half hour looking up phone picture apps because I know I’ll be taking a lot of photos, but I know I should be cleaning. My guess is probably the next time I am back on here is when I am in the air next week. So until then have a good weekend!